I cry today training....

2day Joy did't come trng.. so boring.. v do warm-up until 4 o'clock thn take apparatus.. i take club 2day.. then practice without music.. after Lok Yi n Phoebe dance.. my turns.. first round is okay.. did't hav big misstakes, only the balance no so stable.. then my coach change some element from my rountine.. i practice after tis.. when doing second round, my coach say to me if i drop the new element throw need to do x20 times after dancing tat rountine.. OMG!! i catch it n it gone always ..that rubber club.. make me need to do x20 times.. n the last throw i did't catch becoz somebody was infront of me, i sacre i will crash her.. so tat last throw need to do x10 times.. thn i CRY... when my coach saying somethg to me i did't listen it .. i dunwan let's her c i'm crying... i thk in my mind.. She really want to train me to be more stronger or she wan to kill me!!!!!!!!!!! tat was only first time doing tat element ..need to get "denda"... need to do total 30 times... I CRY.!!!!!!!!!!